that night

It was raining that night,
Just like today,
I remember it clearly,
perhaps too clear, that makes me hate it everytime it rains,
and I hate it more, that I am slowly to turn into you,

I was whispering to him on bed, 
I couldn't sleep, the rain outside made me restless,
I asked, why was everything so different,
I asked, why was they never smile to me,
I asked, why was it always hurtful for me,
and all he said, he doesn't know.

Then, the lightning awaken everyone,
I cried, I don't like it,
I tried to calm myself,
But I was so scared,
I knew what is going to happen,
and I was right.

I saw you,
You open the door slowly,
Then with your thunderous voice,
You yelled, asking why am I crying and making noise in the middle of the night,
I didn't answer, I didn't have any,
and I knew it pissed you more.

And, then,
You grasped my hair tightly,
You dragged me out of the room, out of the house, in the darkest hour, in the middle of the rain,
and you locked me there.

I cried so bad,
I begged you to open the door,
Those time pass so slowly,
Then I heard the door clicked,
You stormed out furiously,
Without a single words,
The belt in your hand,
It danced all over my body,
It hurts, It hurts so bad,
But, what hurts more is that,
I don't know why it has to be this way.

Then that time, I vowed to myself,
If I would have a child,
I would never treated him like you did.

But this morning,
I failed, I failed miserably,
I could see how scare he was in his eyes,
Yet, I didn't stop,
Then I realize,
I am becoming you,
The one I hate,
Only then I stop...